Post reblogged from Bones-are-beautiful with 43 notes
Losing weight and being thin is all I care about anymore
Currently:
[x] anorexic
[] ednos
[x] bulimic
[] living off laxative/diet pills
[] hungry
[] thirsty
[] drinking something
[] Under 100lbs
[x] fasting/starving myself
People:
[x] have asked if I’m anorexic/bulimic
[x] have called me fat
[x] have said I’m skinny
[] have said I’m ugly
[x] have said I’m pretty
[x] spread rumors about me
[x] forced me to eat
[x] say I eat too much
[x] wish I’d eat more
I wish:
[x] I was THIN
[x] I had a better body
[x] I didn’t have to eat
[x] I could control myself
[x] I was under 100 lbs
[x] I could avoid food
[x] I could hide what I am
[x] I wasn’t fat
[x] I was pretty
I love:
[x] feeling hungry
[x] seeing a difference when fasting
[x] shaking
[x] feeling airy
[x] losing weight
[x] being anorexic/bulimic
[x] coffee
[x] green tea
[] diet pills
[x] being able to turn down food
[x] feeling good about myself
Appearance:
[] I am shorter than 5’4
[x] I think I’m ugly
[x] I have scars
[] I wish my hair was a different colour
[] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color
[] I have a tattoo
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance
[] I have/had braces
[] I wear glasses/contacts
[x] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free
[x] I’ve been told I’m attractive by a complete stranger
[x] I have more than 2 piercings
[] I have piercings in places besides my ears
[] I have freckles
Family:
[] I’ve sworn at my parents
[] I’ve run away from home
[] I’ve been kicked out of the house
[x] My biological parents are together
[] I have a sibling less than one year old
[] I want to have kids someday
[] I’ve had children
[] I’ve lost a child/baby
[] I can’t have children
Relationships:
[x] I’m single
[] I’m in a relationship
[] I’m engaged
[] I’m married
[] I’ve gone on a blind date
[] I’ve been the dumpee more than the dumper
[] I miss someone right now
[x] I have a fear of abandonment
[] I’ve cheated in a relationship
[] I’ve gotten divorced
[x] I’ve had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back
[x] I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t
[x] I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did
[x] I’ve kept something from a past relationship
[x] I’ve been ‘the other woman’
Sexuality:
[] I’ve had a crush on someone of the same sex
[] I’ve had a crush on a teacher
[] I am a cuddler
[x] I’ve kissed in the rain
[] I’ve hugged a stranger
[] I have kissed a stranger
Bad Times:
[x] I’ve consumed alcohol
[] I regularly drink
[] I can’t swallow pills
[x] I can swallow numerous pills at a time without water
[x] I have been diagnosed with depression
[x] I shut others out when I’m upset
[] I take anti-depressants
[x] I’m anorexic or bulimic or have ednos
[x] I’ve slept an entire day when I didn’t need it
[x] I’ve hurt myself on purpose
[] I’ve woken up crying
[x] I’ve fallen asleep crying
[x] I’ve lost weight
[x] I’ve gained weight
[x] My weight holds me back
[x] Weight consumes me
[] I’m at my thinnest
[x] I’m at my biggest
[] I’ve lost weight and kept it off
[x] I’ve lost weight but gained it back
[x] My weight affects my mood
[x] I weigh myself daily
[x] I am jealous of everyone smaller than me
[] I hate compliments
[x] I want to tell people to “stop lying” when they compliment me
[x] I feel bigger than people who are my size
[x] I feel happy when I’m hungry
[x] I get depressed after I eat
[x] I’ve skipped a meal
[x] I’ve thrown food away
[x] I’ve spit food out
[x] I’ve fasted
[] I’ve taken diet pills
[x] I’ve used laxatives
[x] I’ve purged
[x] I exercise
[] I exercise so I can eat
[x] I work out secretly
[x] I work out daily
[x] I’ve fainted from exhaustion
I’ve done:
[] Weed
[x] Cigarettes
[x] Alcohol
[] Caffeine pills
[] Diet pills
[x] Pain killers
[x] Sleeping pills
[x] Anti-depressants
[] Mood stabilizers
[] Anti-psychotics
[] Benzos
[] Ecstacy
[] LSD
[] Mushrooms
[] Speed
[] Cocaine
[] Other
Habits:
[x] I keep my eating habits a secret
[x] I look at thinspo
[x] I count calories
[x] I’ve had negative intake days
[x] I avoid food
[x] I hate food
[x] I love food
[x] I want to be this way
[x] I don’t want to be like this
[x] I wish I could have more control
[x] losing weight is my top priority
[] I am in treatment
[x] I’m doing this for me
[] I’m doing this for someone
Post reblogged from All I Want is to Disappear with 7 notes
Food is the only thing I ever think about, the only thing I want to talk about. It’s funny how something I refuse to consume instead consumes my whole life.
Post reblogged from Bones-are-beautiful with 22 notes
Don’t eat don’t eat don’t eat your fat fat fat look at you your ugly pretty girls don’t eat
my eating disorder
Height: 5’6
Current weight: 115lbs
and shrinking
Highest weight: 121lbs
Lowest weight: 92lbs
Goal weight: 90lbs
(it’ll get lower)
Favorite binge food: ice cream, bread, chocolate.
Favorite exercise: push ups, jogging
What makes you strong: ana
How many calories do you consume a day?:
200-300
What do you see when you look in the mirror?:
ugly, fat, gross, worthless,weak, disgusting, huge, big, fatty fat fat fat FAT!
Have you ever fasted?: yes
Are you in a relationship?: nope.
Are you the fat or thin one out of your friends?
almost the thinnest
Are you depressed?: yes, most of the time
Ever been to a psychologist?: no
Are you on any medication?: no
I am:
[x] pro ana
[] pro mia
[x] ednos
[] bulimic
[] living off diet pills
[] hungry
[] thirsty
[] drinking something
[] eating something
[] under 100 pounds
[] starving myself
[] participating in a fast
[] vegan
[] vegetarian.
[] losing weight healthily
People:
[x] ask if I’m anorexic/bulimic
[] call me fat
[x] say I’m skinny
[] say I’m ugly
[x] say I’m pretty
[x] spread rumors about me
[x] force me to eat
[x] say I eat to much
[x] wish I’d eat more
[x] don’t know im ana/mia/ednos
[x] have tried to stop me
I wish I:
[x] was thin
[x] had a better body
[x] didn’t have to eat
[x] could control myself
[x] was under 100 pounds
[x] could avoid food
[x] could hide what I am
[x] wasn’t fat
[x] was prettier
[] could stop being ana/mia
[x] had a bf/gf
[] could disappear
I love:
[x] feeling hungry
[x] seeing a difference
[x] shaking
[x] being weak
[x] losing weight
[x] being ana/mia
[x] green tea
[] diet pills
[] being able to turn down food
[] feeling good about myself
I hate:
[x] when people stare
[x] being asked questions
[x] having to eat
[] wearing short skirts
[x] being single
[x] feeling fat
[x] feeling ugly
[x] looking this way
[x] fat people
I need:
[x] more support
[x] people to stay out of my business
[] more friends
(ana is my only friend)
[x] someone to know how I feel
[x] less food
[x] a gym membership
[x] more water
[] to lose 75 pounds
[] to lose 50 pounds
[x] to lose 30 pounds
[] to lose 20 pounds
[] to lose 15 pounds
[] to lose 10 pounds
[x] to stop hating myself
Post reblogged from Smile with 9 notes
So I went and bought lunch. Wonderful. I feel heavier, every time I eat.
Starving is like floating, in my own imaginary world where I can do what I want. Eating throws me back to earth damaged and in pain. Why can’t I just float.
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